Breakthrough

 

Nearly a month after I attended the conference of Wounded Healers, I continue to be in awe of the transformation that occurred.

Given that I was not anticipating a spiritual healing to occur, I had no expectations of the discussions shared, by the speakers from Wounded Healers Ministries.

At the conclusion of the three days dedicated to the conference, I ended up forgiving the one person, whose baggage I carried for over forty years. As I stepped out of the encasement of shame that covered me, there was a revelation of who I am no longer.

My cocoon had been torn open, bursting forth with vibrant tints painted by the hands of God. This alteration was not about a whole new me; rather it became clear my emergence drew on the very clay, I had been formed with at birth.

In treading through unknown waters; a major shifting has taken place, where peace is amongst the other bedlam in my life.  

Truth is… the rest of my world is not at all perfect. 

There is a misconception some have of Christians that we are sheathed in a bubble of light and joy. Let me burst that notion by saying what I have learned as a believer. The closer I draw nearer to God, the more the enemy is bent on hellish destruction, which includes suffering in any way possible. I refuse to give Satan the platform here; instead I am grateful to the one I believe gave his life on the cross for me, my Saviour, Jesus Christ.

In stating my declaration, I share the following true account of the Smith family- a mother and father, along with their 14 year old son John Smith, who experienced transformation in a radical way.

On January 19^th, 2015, John and two of his friends had fallen through the ice on a lake in St. Charles Missouri.

While the other two boys were rescued, John sank to the bottom and was under water for 15 minutes, before being pulled to the surface by one of his rescuers, Tommy Shine.

When John was transported into the hospital, he was pronounced dead…for an Hour!

In writing this, I want to share that I did not just read about it. Last week, I sat front and center in a theatre and watched all of this unfold on the big screen. 

A few years ago, this would not be possible, given the way my daughter died in a frozen reservoir. When Shayla’s car crashed through the ice, there was 362.83 km – or about 4 hrs separating me from her. For that reason, I never was able to be right there, when she was brought into the hospital in Kelowna, BC.

As I sat riveted in the movie theatre, I was careful to keep check on my Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. In viewing something like this, the triggers could take me back to a place; I have fought hard to rise above.

I will admit, it was challenging to watch as the young boy was brought, lifeless into the hospital.

In my own daughter’s scenario, I was told how those in the room would not give up on her. There were Doctors I never met and nurses who I have not had the opportunity to thank; including the paramedics, ambulance driver and anyone else who attended.

Watching every minute of what transpired with John, was like being given a glimpse into the past of December 12^th, 2011.

For a minute, as my eyes were affixed to the screen, it was my babygirl on that table.

This is when I realized, I needed to take a deep breath in and let John Smith’s story be told.

For my daughter, her life was an ending chapter… but what happened next, is where a new chapter, began to unfold for the Smith family.

John’s mother, Joyce Smith arrived to the hospital in a state of shock. Earlier that day, only minutes after talking to John on his cell phone, they had hung up and the ice cracked from underneath him. 

As a devout Christian, she was lead into the room where her son laid, cold, no heart tones or signs of life. 

“John was dead. He was gone," said Dr. Kent Sutterer, the ER doctor on duty that day.

The doctor had asked Joyce to say her goodbyes, as he needed to call time of death.

“She walked up to the end of the bed and touched his feet, which were the only part of his extremities that were uncovered. She recalls them being cold and grey. It was then that she began to pray out loud desperately. "'Holy Spirit, please come and give me back my son.' And within moments, he started to have a heartbeat," Joyce recalled. Her son John had been without a pulse for roughly an hour and the doctors had been trying to revive him for half an hour.” ~ Source: The Impossible

John though was not alert by any means and would spend the next 48 to 72 hours fighting for his life. A prayer chain went viral on Facebook. Soon people were gathering outside the hospital to be beacons of hope, love and light to John, his mother Joyce and his father, Brian. 

Chrissy Metz - I'm Standing With You (From "Breakthrough" Soundtrack)

Video Link>>>  https://youtu.be/s7CHl9cB-m8 

This is where I leave this story, for you to discover yourself. Whether you read the book  “The IMPOSSIBLE,” or watch the film, “Breakthrough,” both are testimonies of a 21^st century miracle that took place.  As for my own breakthrough…I experienced another kind, when I sat through 1 hour and 56 minutes of something I have endured, which had two, very, different endings. 

 

In the years of my spiritual walk, I have come to believe that all things created, have a way of colliding into our lives.

Currently, with me being concerned about loved ones who are experiencing serious health issues, my anxiety has increased. The disorders I have lived with most of my life, are not to be confused with lack of faith. If anything, I have been made stronger,  because of my weaknesses.

To combat any negativity and restore balance, I have broken free into Mother Nature. 

Arriving at a local Regional park, my shoulders fall at ease.

Her lofty branches welcome me amongst the spruce, cedar and fir. I inhale the breath of the natural world, covered in frondescence. 

Slowly, I let the caked deposits of tension, be separated from the woodland scene, before me. 

My fingers feel the deep crags of the bark from a towering Douglas, my nails touch the liquid adhesive, which bears signs of disturbance from within. 

As my heart beats, the sound of a red-breasted nuthatch echoes to me its existence. 

Looking at a growth of shooting star flowers, I marvel at the basal, clumping of leaves leading to their nodding, lavender, collars. 

Traipsing along the woodland trail, I forget about my two left feet. As soon as I am immersed along a rock and root pathway, my runners catch the tips of protruding sticks. 

In the back of my mind, I heed an old, familiar, voice say: “Pick up your feet Tonya.”

Nearing a blind corner, my solitude is interrupted by a young man, wearing track shorts and high tops. Completing his fashion is a John McEnroe headband, holding back mounds of dark curls. With him, is his sidekick black lab, tongue hanging out. Bounding through the forest, as if they were at a track meet, each of us is startled to discover the other’s presence. The man apologizes and as he carries on, evokes images of a running Forrest Gump – minus the beard. Part of me is envious as his feet carry him effortlessly, only minutes later, I trip over  a tiny stick.

I decide to make my way to the entrance of the park and self consciously ponder the next trip will be to the ocean.

Back at my residence, I check the tides along with the sunrises and sunsets, for the next few days. In between, I dedicate my time searching for and applying to various job opportunities. 

Like a revolving door, my life swings open, with chapters closing.

The next day, I am at the beach. Brackish water settles into my nostrils. I smile, thinking of how there has never been an air freshener, which comes close to the essence of the sea.

On the trail down to the beach, I discover a relative of "Groot," popping up to say hello!  

Grabbing my camera, I go exploring. Not for the usual photograph of my toes in the sand or a pair of sunglasses, reflecting the open waters. My coastal spirit thirsts for something more.

I find a slab of granite, with a hole drilled in it. Inquisitively, I peek inside. 

My discovery is a smoothed black pebble, hiding from the incoming tides. Its refuge within the massive stone will soon come to an end, and see the pebble return to the ocean, once the waves break through. 

Next, my eyes zoom in on a marvellous sight! On the beach, I discover a formation of washed up seagrass, which resembles ventricles of a heart. This beautiful find invokes humbleness amongst the smallest of things. 

 

Finding a long piece of driftwood, I settle in to watch the seagulls preen themselves on a boulder. What I enjoy the most is that I have no cell signal and can tune out the world, with a front row seat to the natural environment. 

 Only when becoming conscious of the sun setting, do I stand to stretch. It is then I see something faintly dance off the water. There are hues of purple so bright, the glaring rays, make it difficult to stare into. My decision to take a few photographs proved worthwhile, as once back home, I am amazed at what my camera exhibits!

Contained within the snapshot is a vivid illustration of mauve rays mid center, emitting from a solid hue of purple, over the open sea in a display of brilliance. What my eyes witnessed could not even fathom the imagery. 

This intrigued me to conduct further research. In my discovery, I read about the Purple Light Ray and Archangel Zadkiel.

Zadkiel, the archangel of mercy, is in charge of the purple light ray. Zadkiel helps people approach God for mercy when they've done something wrong, encouraging them that God cares and will be merciful to them when they confess and repent of their sins, and motivating them to pray. Just as Zadkiel encourages people to seek the forgiveness that God offers them, he also encourages people to forgive others who have hurt them and helps deliver divine power that people can tap into to enable them to choose forgiveness, despite their hurt feelings. Zadkiel helps heal emotional wounds by comforting people and healing their painful memories. He helps repair broken relationships by motivating estranged people to show mercy to each other. 

~ Source: Angels and Miracles

I then delved into my Bible, and discovered that the archangel of freedom, benevolence and mercy is the unnamed biblical Angel of the Lord, who holds back Abraham from sacrificing his son. Zadkiel is associated with the colour violet.

At St Michael and All Angels Church, in Brighton, East Sussex, England, there is a stained glass made in 1862 of Saint Zadkiel the Archangel.

I am not claiming anything, other than what I believe in, and that is angels do exist. In the Bible, there are eight archangels, who are listed throughout.

Just as in the movie, “Breakthrough,” which allows the viewer to decide for themselves what happened to John Smith…I am letting my readers choose for themselves what to believe.

I would like to add that before this experience happened, I mailed my mom for Mother’s Day, a  purple ‘Guardian Angel” figurine, I bought at a Christian store. 

In my personal journey of forgiveness, my mother was someone I prayed over often. When at long last,  I freed myself from all the heartache of our tumultuous past, this allowed more room in my life for me to ultimately forgive others.

I will say it is fascinating after completing a conference on forgiveness and receiving my own powerful breakthrough, when standing in a place of serenity at the ocean, I do not fear the storms of life… which may be coming my way. 

By T.L. Alton